what is it you've missed ??  nothing really my life pretty much sucks right now... for the most part anyways... there are still a few things that can put a smile on my face... i have much on my mind but not enough time to share them... i'll have to fill ya in later gots to go to da store.

**********edit************ i copied this blog onto myspace but i had to make changes on the myspace one for the readers who might be offended ... this is the original*****

hmmm lets to bullets!!!  

*  um sooo im having my tonsils removed monday and im starting to get a lil worried ... im gonna be off work for a week... too bad i wont be able to talk so well ... me + pain killers = pretty funny... usually ... so i think this would be a good time to add a disclaimer for any random, crazy, off the wall, inappropriate text messages i might send out next week ... lets just go ahead and get it out of the way shall we... I apologize

*  school starts the 25th..   excited and nervous all at the same time

*  talked to one of the tyler ppl today she said she heard that the new branch @ greshim probably wont be open till mid novemember  =/

*  ive been looking for this cd for weeks couldnt find it anywhere so i special ordered it from hastings  yay  me cant wait  (i also put the song that i was after on my myspace page its very fitting lol)

*   it rained today... i love the rain absolutely love it... ive had this desire since high school to just lay out in the rain  on my  back and let the rain just fall on my face... i think i would prefer to lay on concrete, as to avoid mud

*  ppl i would rather not here from have mysteriously started texting me this past week, what horrible timing ... and while i dont wanna hurt their feelings i just really dont wanna have anything to do with them  =/   ... (it was the craziest thing the other night i got a txt from one of them and i promise it wasnt 20 secs later and i had a txt from the other i think they're working together against me ... course they would probably need to know each other 1st for that lol)

*  um my best friend alisa is getting married sept 6th ... so her mother, sister , and i have less than a month to throw together a shower and a wedding... her colors are gonna be hot pink and black =)   its should be interesting

*  speaking of weddings ... this girl i work with who was supposedly engaged has been married for 2 weeks and she didnt tell any of us (those she worked with that is) because she was embarrassed ... she also put in her 2 weeks notice becuz she is moving to california to live with her new husband (he is a marine and thats where hes stationed)

*  that said we need to find another part time muy pronto cuz the bank stays open till 6 and uh my night classes start the 25th i wont be able to work late except on fridays so that leaves rhonda and holly working nights and i can guarantee you that rhonda isnt gona let that fly for long ... i wouldnt either if i was her  .... it also means working more saturdays... yuck i hate working saturdays

*  i want my own apartment so bad i can taste it 

*  ive been so incredibly tired this week  for absolutely no reason at all ... ive made to bed by 9:30 most of the week... maybe im getting too much sleep

*  i heard a home concocktion for aurthoritise today remind me to tell mom so she can tell papa... u mix soy bean jr with witch hazel and rub some on where ever it hurts... our new accounts lady tried it on her elbow and hands... she said it worked great called it a miracle... i thought it would at least be worth a try

anyhow its late and ive been thinking about crawling into bed for quite some time now...

good night my dears... sweet dreams

   so let me go ahead and say before you read this that..... i know i have plenty of time and that my focus needs be on school and my job and i can worry about the rest after i graduate... but....

   theres this new trend going on these days... everybody around me is gettin engaged  or is already married.. as a matter of fact 2 of my friends this month alone got engaged and 1 got engaged last month ....... and if they're not doing that or aren't already married they're havin a kid or already has several kids ... its kinda  depressing... and yeah im happy for them... and i won't lie theres a lil part of me thats kinda jealous.... but when we go out im always the 3rd wheel, i hate being the 3rd wheel its kinda akward... not just my friends but my family as well, i just dont fit in with them.. when we have get togethers everybody has thier own lil clan and quiet frankly i just dont enjoy it (the get togethers that is) i love my family and friends dearly, every last one, but we're just not on the same page ... different stages of life you might say ... and, and ... im not sure where i was going with this, i had it all thought out earlier but its just not flowing together so well now... i don't know.. i just feel like im in a rutt and i want something new and exciting for myself (lol that sounds a tad bit selfish) im just saying thats all ... some part of me thinks that when i have my own lil clan that things will be better.. that i wont be the odd man out at functions and get togethers even at work every last one of'em is married or engaged... i supose there isnt really much of a point to this blog im just rambling on now... ... its just depressing thats all im really saying

oh update... the new branch was to be opened around labor day ... due to some delays they're now saying that it probably wont open till the end of october.... i still havent heard either way yet  but ive got my fingers crossed   =)